Now and then I'm scared,
when I seem to forget how sounds
become words or even sentences
No, I don't speak anymore and what could I say,
since no-one is there and there is nothing to say
So, I prefer to lie in darkest silence alone
listening to the lack of light, or sound,
or someone to talk to,
for something to share
- but there is no hope and no-one is there.
No, no, no ...- not one living soul and there is nothing (left) to say,
in darkness I lie all alone by myself,
sleeping most of the time to endure the pain.
I am not breathing a word,
I haven't spoken for weeks and yet the mistress
inside me is (secretly) straining her ears.
But there is no-one, and it seems to me at times
that with every passing hour another word is leaving my mind ...
I am the mistress of loneliness, my court is deserted but I do not care.
The presence of people is ugly and cold
and something I can neither watch nor bear.
So, I prefer to lie in darkness silence alone,
listening to the lack of light, or sound,
or someone to talk to, for something to share
- but there is no hope and no-one is there.
No, I don't speak anymore and what should I say,
since no- one is there and there is nothing to say?
All is oppressive, alles ist schwer,
there is no-one and NO-ONE IS THERE
이 그룹의 이름은 Sopor Aeternus
영어로는 Eternal Sleep 을 말한다..영원한 잠
영원한 잠에 대한 막연한 그리움
하지만 그것은 그리움이자 또한 두려움도 된다
죽음과 동일시 되는 깊은 잠
해가 뜨고 지고 바람이 불다 사라진다
우리의 지각이 가져다주는 현실의 삶에 엉킨 본질의 고통과 시련은
오직 깊은 잠을 통하여 회피가 가능하다
이처럼 잠이란 자신을 묶고있는
번민과 고뇌의 인식에서 자유로울수 있는
단하나의 방법임을 이들은 Sopor Aeternus 라는 화두를 통하여
상징적으로 나타내 주는데 그내면에는
결국 삶과 죽음은 별개가 아니라는 염세성과 지극한 허무가 담겨있다.
